Oh Paxil! My Paxil!

Man I love that stuff.  I’ve been taking it now for over 10 years and it’s done wonders for me.  I originally began taking it with Klonopin for agoraphobia with panic attacks.  It’s funny-the agoraphobia began not long after I met my ex-husband and graduated from college.  I was able to stop taking the Klonopin after we divorced.  Hmmmm…..anyone else see a connection?

I still rely on the Paxil for anxiety and it’s been a life saver.  I used to be trapped in my house by panic attacks, not able to do anything other than go to work and come home again.  In any other situation, I was a mess.  I even had anticipatory anxiety which meant I got upset about a situation prior to even being in said situation.  Even something as simple as drive to my mom’s was nuts for me.  She lived an hour away and I was overly stressed about the possibility of getting caught in traffic.

Now I’m able to do just about everything I want to do.  I still get nervous in situations that I know I’ve had trouble with in the past, but I pray through it and talk myself down and I’m good to go.  NOTE*********This is not, in any way, a suggestion for others.  Each of us have individual needs and you need to see a reputable doctor.  I’m just telling you my experience and how Paxil has worked wonders for me.  :)

Favorite Part of the Day

We all have one, I’m sure.  That time of day when everything seems  perfect (or close enough) and your personal stars align.  My favorite part of the day is when my head hits the pillow.

That’s the time when I can relax, knowing that this day is over; nothing more can be done.  Anything else can wait until tomorrow.  It’s the time of day that puts a smile on my face.  I actually get excited right before I go to bed in anticipation of the event, as sleep is my escape from the day’s stresses.

I fall asleep quickly and stay asleep (as long as my husband doesn’t wake me for some reason) and I typically don’t remember my dreams.  It’s great!  It took years to cultivate this skill, however.  I wasn’t always this lucky, but, then I developed agoraphobia with panic attacks.  Yay!

In order to avoid the feelings that accompany agoraphobia, I taught myself to fall asleep as a defense mechanism.  That got me through many a traffic jam (obviously, I wasn’t the driver).  It also helped me avoid facing the feelings that were overwhelming me.

While my agoraphobia is under control and I no longer have panic attacks (thank God for Paxil!), I still have the ability to fall asleep quickly.  This bodes well when my husband is in a mood.